Pondering over my past

It happens quite frequently with me. I won't say it was bad or hype about the things that didn't go as I thought. From one perspective, it seems like a lot of learnings had come through that phase whereas from other angle it seems like things could have been different. But here's the thought that strikes my mind every time I think it could have been different," Every thing happens the way it is meant to be". If I'll keep on complaining about the things, I would learn nothing from it. After all, I have to take the responsibility of my actions and reactions.

I really don't like to blame God for anything. There's no doubt that it feels irritating and frustrated at times but I trust the divine and believe that everything happens for a reason. One thing that I would really like to discuss here is whenever you feel sad about any situation or trying hard to overcome from depression, just notice the actual facts that happened. Either write them down or recall in your mind because mind has ability to play false memories. I feel that sometimes people tend to over-exaggerate things which create false memories in mind. And the significant fact about the past is that it has happened. We cannot go back and change the things now. All we need is to forgive ourselves and others. Of course, everything cannot be forgiven so easily but what's the fun of carrying hate in your heart.

Are you waiting for someone from your past to play cameo in your life and apologize you. My dear friend, these are just thoughts in your mind that have become your habit and you are feeling them and living them. Try to see the reality which is now, here in the present. Your state of mind is your responsibility. If you think you gave an honest try, then don't cry. Let it go. I know it hurts and its not as easy as being said. But remember the power is within you. That is why I keep saying that be there for yourself every time. Don't loose yourself ever. Its ok to be upset some times but don't get carried away by emotions. Use them to strengthen yourself. 

I am saying all this from personal experience. There are very few people who accept you because understanding is something that is developed over time. You can understand any person you spend time with but its more about acceptance. So value your emotions and don't try to validate yourself to everyone. You are easy to love and deserve all the happiness in life. Trust the process and make peace with your past. Those traumas need to be treated gently. Be consistent with your affirmations and self-love routine, only then negative feelings and fears of past would be healed.